So ive been thinking about joining the National Guard again.. I dont consider myself as a failure or anything like that but i just feel like im almost 21 and i dont really have much to show. Alot of my friends go to UC's and are gonna be graduating from college soon and i know all of them are going to become very successful. I just dont wanna be one of those people who live at home until theyre like 30.
I want to do this for myself, but the only thing that is really holding me back is the feelings i have towards someone. I dont want to lose this person and how i feel towards them or how she may feel about me. She is someone very special to me and i care about her alot. She is someone i would like to build into something one day and hopefully she feels the same some day. I think i might just have this talk with her soon.
Update on my drinking.. its been a little more than a week, so i believe im doing pretty good. Not drinking until June 21st. Im not just doing this for someone but also for myself, and its nice to take a break from alcohol. Its funny being sober and watching how people act when theyre 'drunk' but yeah. Im gonna stick this one. I can do this.
Got a fat ass headache at the moment... hopefully goes away soon.
Once again.. no catchy lyric to end this. All good, i gotta update on my song lyrics anyways. Yee haha
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