Just one of those nights..

Ive had my mind on alot of things these past few weeks. with girls, home, friends, babies(kaitlyn marie =]) and many different things.

So last thursday night/friday morning i stayed up until about 3am to wait for Drakes "So Far Gone" mixtape and it didnt even come out till about 930am haha but whatever. it was well worth the wait. If you havent listened to it, then you should. I believe that his music is way different than many artists out right now. He doesnt rap or sing about being a thug or how hard his life was when he was little. Every artist has a message to send out to everyone and im still trying to figure out his message. Hopefully ill get it soon.

Well im back at home now. At my grandma's house. It isnt as bad as i thought it was going to be. Its still different because i havent been there for a long time. But recently i havent really been sleeping at home but when i do, im very thankful that im back home. Its good to wake up and my grandma ask me if im hungry haha and plus its all FREE =)

Girls, Girls, Girls... Girls i do adore... Its hard to find someone out there that is perfect for you. Im sorry but i still dont think i have found that person. Tonight made me think and i kinda wanna go back to being celibent (meaning no sex till marriage) or atleast with someone that i believe that im going to spend the rest of my life with. I know im still young and i have a long time before im actually gonna get married. Im still confused with all these feelings i have inside of me. Its hard to really just spill out how i feel towards someone. I did once and now that person is currently with someone else. A setback, so its really hard for me to express how i feel. I usually hide it all inside because im scared of not commitment but of rejection. Everyone goes through rejection sometime in their life but it just comes to a point where you can only be rejected so many times before you realize you dont wanna open up to anyone. I might be coming up to that point.

"music take me away...'