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The little things can always make you realize something bigger.

Like maybe i havent been looking really hard for a job as i should be. I'm fucking up and i dont need someone telling me that i need to get my life back on track. I know what the fuck i need to do.

This is to everyone who tells someone else that they need to get their life back on track when their lives arent on the right track either. Dont say one thing and do another. This isnt towards anyone specific or anything. Not calling anyone out. Dont worry. Just my thoughts coming out.

AND IM STILL FUCKEN PISSED ABOUT MY FUCKEN XBOX. YOU FUCKER I WILL FUCKEN FIND YOU, YOU BITCH AND WILL KILL YOU. YOU FUCKEN WATCH. ONCE I FIND OUT WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE, YOUR FUCKEN LIFE IS OVER.

Early Morning

So i basically havent been able to sleep this past couple days. Maybe i need to stop napping during the day. Idk? Haha its cool though. Lets do a little recap in my life;

This past weekend i attended Ladies Night at Space 550, then spend the next day in Concord for a little dinner with some close friends. When i returned home the next morning, my xbox 360 was gone along with my iPod, and also Kristina's Macbook and her iPod.

How can someone really just come into my room and steal shit like that? Are you fucking serious? Everyone I've talked to said it has to be someone i know and that i have let into my house. What kinda shit is that? How can someone just fucken steal from a friend? I let you into my home and this is how you repay me? To whoever it is, karma will strike you right in the fucken head you bastard. And once i find out who you are, its over for you. Dont let me catch who you are.

Anyways, im juiced for this upcoming weekend. Another Space 550 event and it should be cool. i know alot of my friends will be there and they always make everything fun and shit. Its also my 'Birthday Bash' haha and my favorite bartender is going to be there too =) also my friend Eddy is finally coming home for the holidays but hes gonna be leaving again to finish boot camp but its always good to see him and see that hes doing well.

Since im up, im not really doing anything. Just listening to some music. The good thing i believe about music is that it helps you whenever your feeling down or however your feeling. i know certain songs help me through the day and shit. I also like to listen to the lyrics and carefully listen to what they are saying. I just love music in general. Right now im really enjoying Common's new album, Musiq Soulchild and Kanye West.

I know this blog is about everything but fuck it. Nothing specific to write about so yeah. PEACE!

Happy Thanksgiving

For one day, people finally give thanks to what they have and for the people they have in their lives. shit, ive been thankful for all my friends and things that i do have since i was kicked out of my house last year.

Well theres always those people who stick out and that you are very thankful for. Let me begin with the guy that ive known since 6th grade; Gabe. Me and you have gone through so much this past year, i can honestly say you are my best friend. I am very excited for you to have a baby and im excited to become an uncle soon. But thank you for all those rides, all those nights we just chilled and kicked it and played hella madden at my house haha. Your always someone i can just talk to about anything. I love you very homo and i dont care haha.

Next; Mark, i know we havent known each other for that long but shit i know we're close now and your like a brother to me. we've smoke, drank and beyond this past summer and shit haha. all those nights you'd spent the night at my house haha. no matter what i got your back.

Next, this girl named Kristina..UGHH OMG! haha idk yeah well your a wonderful person and we have gone through so much throughout like prolly 6 months? idk haha i dont keep track lol well your a wonderful person and im very happy that i got to know you better. you know im always here for you when you need me and yeah.

Well im kinda lazy and dont really feel like writing anymore at the moment haha but yeah. Im very thankful for all my friends who have stuck with me with everything that ive been going through i love you all very much and you all mean a lot to me. If your one of my guy friends, i dont care i love you very HOMO haha and if your one of my girl friends i love you ;) haha jk.

Goodnight or good morning? haha

I wait..

So now its basically official that i will be joining the Army National Guard. i will be swearing in and also picking a date to leave this saturday. i have so much shit going through my head about this but i know all this will better me and my future. so now i wait and see when i will be leaving and hope that my friends and loved ones will be supporting me the whole time. now i also wait for something else..

We will see where this career takes me. Hopefully straight to the top! haha

Why must we..

Lets all keep our cool now. No offense to everyone who is talking shit on here, but can we be civil and just talk shit to each other in person. I know its hella entertaining to some of us but please. Man to Man would be alot easier and alot better.

Also i believe if you have to talk shit behind someones back, shit then you arent even a real friend now. Atleast stab this guy in the front right?

Like yes we all talk shit about each other. we all know each others business but please keep this BITCHASSNESS down.

Yes i love my friends, and what they have done for me but please lets leave all this drama at the door and NO MORE BITCHASSNESS. We all need to 'man up' and take responsibility for our actions but this is not the way to do it. Put someone on blast is not cool.

On a pill called insomnia

Its about 3 in the morning and i cant sleep. this isnt anything new for me, im used to not sleeping around this time. ive been going through this for a couple weeks now and i really didnt know why i couldnt sleep at night.

so i just finally came to the conclusion, that i had too much on my mind. from relationships with a certain someone to finding a new job. some friendships i doubted were even going through my mind alot. just alot going through my mind and i couldnt handle it so i guess it took away my sleep during nights.

finally this week after so much on my mind, i got my first good night sleep in about 2-3 weeks. it felt so good to just finally sleep at night like a normal person. i just finally cleared my mind from everything and also would talk to someone to help me sleep at night. i also got my first really good nap this week and i felt so refreshed.

usually around this time i would be talking to gabe aka my bff =) haha and we would just be talking about anything that would be on our mind and usually youtube would keep us entertained. we even had a little flashback night and looked up shows that were in the 90s and watched shows from 'muppet babies' to 'hey arnold' haha. we also watched alot of goosebumps that night haha hella old school.

but tonight is different, im not sure why i cant really sleep, but i had a talk with someone and it just felt good talking to them. i opened up more and i believe i can now sleep in peace just because of them =) so thank you to them and i hope to sleep soon with a smile on my face.

First Entry

Well today is my first blog, i dont really know what to say at this point. i could continue about the who emo thing but thats all gabe right now haha. maybe ill continue that later on.

Well ill just start off with some small facts about myself then; my name is Alberto Solis but everyone knows me as Berto, i was born and raised in Oakland and was raised by a Salvadorian family. Lived in Oakland till my senior year in high school and moved to San Leandro. Im 19 years old and soon to be 20 in a couple months.

I got a few close friends, they know who they are. I dont need to say who is who and why they are so close to me and whatnot. I love them and would do anything for them. Ive lost friends but also gained so many. I wouldnt give up my friends who i have right now for anything. They are basically my family right now.

Ive changed a lot this past year, ive done a lot of thing i wouldnt of thought i would be doing. Its just an obstacle that i had to go through to help me become a better person and all that good stuff.

Well i think thats it for now haha so ill blog again sometime soon i guess. Have a good day.